Why Do I Do This?

Oh yes...the question I ask myself numerous times a day over numerous things...

But today I ask myself this in reference to the whole online dating thing. I'm generally not a big dater in general, so I guess it's somewhat unfamiliar territory for me. Not that I am a complete moron when it comes to dating...I just prefer not to do it as I feel like I allow myself to get my heart too involved only to be disappointed, let down or completely hurt. So apparently dating creates fear in me. Yet I am willing to seriously date a guy, which takes exponentially greater risks of the heart. My own assessment of the situation says that I don't like the process of getting to the seriousness. Especially when there is more than one guy involved.

So right now, my heart is really not in the online dating game. Yes, I check it twice a day (sometimes three times if I'm feelin' it a bit). It brings up the remaining amounts of not being over my ex...and it also just always feels so forced to me. I have found in my life that the relationships that I have deemed "successful" (I use this term lightly, and to describe a relationship longer than a year) have happened completely naturally. And the chemistry was there. In the online dating arena, it's hard to feel that chemistry...and again, I say, it feels forced. Which is why I also don't like set-ups (you can find my reasons for disliking set-ups here). 

I've got 2 1/2 more months (at least) on this site (that I'm paying for). I also joined another site which is pretty much free, but I am contemplating pulling my profile from there considering it's the one I found my ex on...

So my conclusions? I pretty much hate online dating. So all you people out there that suggest it to your single friends, keep the above mentioned thoughts at the top of your mind before you do. Just sayin'...